Time, and Time, Repair
timeline collapses somewhere between hong kong and tokyo, but the body's clockwork is magical
A piece from my journal~ Oct 28 2025
As my lower left wisdom tooth finally flares up, I feel like I owe myself a journal entry (Yes, the two has no direct link, but somehow, they do). The last time I pulled out the right-side wisdom tooth was exactly 10 years ago, back in 2015, at NYU. It was not a bad price considering it was in America, and I got two high-impact teeth taken out.
My physical body right now feels like jelly. Melting… releasing. Nose drips, toothache, womb discharges - there is so much to melt away after leaving Tokyo. It’s been like that every time. I swear this spiritual karmic pattern has become so potent. Fluids moving through my head, face, jawline… wow, yes, I am really see it now, it’s definitely some deep cellular memory, like DNA level stuff, from the violent death in my past life, the moment before I died that has shown me so much, and still rings through me.
Since Tokyo, I haven’t been back to one-piece. I’ve been scattered across timelines, in my waking days and in my dreams. (my ascension symptoms aligns with 3I Atlas flying through our solar system). Time, time and more time, again and always, something has led me back to Fanling, my mom’s home, where I spent a few teenage years before I bounced. Trips after trips after trips, long and short, Fanling is that time capsule, compressing us onto the surface of the clock. Quite literally, I found myself not able to get anything going when I am here. And yet, it’s been an unconditional place that’s been holding us up the last 2 years.
Home - that’s what they call it.
Although the energy doesn’t resonate, and I can even say it has always been quite malefic. It’s still the biggest riddle in my life to be figured out. This vortex holds everything - all my teenage remnants, even childhood traces - all within this 500 sq ft government unit. I don’t know what to make of it anymore but I know it keeps me really really humble. I know it’s training me for higher strength, patience, tolerance, love, acceptance - the higher Grace as you can imagine.
It’s been 2 years already being nomadic, (and 10 years roaming in NYC before I got my ID there). I really deeply know it’s not easy at all to set up a home that you can truly called yours. A space where you can go rest, cook, have friends over, share dreams and lovely times so easily. And for that I respect my mom to hold out for so long, being a single mom, in HK, what a mental and harsh place to sustain oneself in.
Then, I found my watch.
I had tucked it into my bag one night when I went to the bathhouse with my sisters Jolene and Christel. The 3 of us had a nice easeful gentle day in Tokyo after the Woomii pop-up event they organized and I photographed. We started from my fav breakfast place Katsuo, then another favourite Urn for Cacao Chai, went for a meditation in Yoyogi Hachimangu, breaking gluten-free rule eating soba in Shiro, took a bath at MinamiAoyama Shimizu, and ate some beautiful fruit tarts from qu’il fait bon. It felt good to free my diet for a few days. (but trust, i am paying for it now, the gluten fucked up my system, and now my period totally skipped).
The watch has been one hour faster since I got back to HK, sitting quietly in my bag, forgotten. I immediately fell sick upon returning to the Fanling vortex. (but quickly recovered after I applied what I learnt from the TCM class, it worked like magic).
Then, right on cue of divine timing, we got a call from another lovely sister Bek, she invited us to her family’s service apartment. We were so so psyched for a staycation in HK. seriously.
Walked into the place, a welcome note greeted on a business card from a luxurious watch repairing shop, placed between 2 bananas:
“welcome Ka Yan”
Literally an invitation to return to one piece - from all the timelines.
We spent 5 beautiful days grounding ourselves, and coming back to our bodies. Now, I am back in Fanling yet again. And guess what - I am sick again. This time, with a toothache.
On my way to a dentist now. Wish me luck.